Thoughts of Recovery No 17 The Spiritual Malady Step 1

Thoughts of Recovery No 17 The Spiritual Malady Step 1

Instead we let Him demonstrate, through us, what He can do. We ask Him to remove our fear and direct our attention to what He would have us be. We put them on paper, even though we had no resentment in connection with them. Self-reliance was good as far as it went, but it didn't go far enough. Some of us once had great self-confidence, but it didn't fully solve the fear problem, or any other.

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I cannot express how happy it has allowed my wife, family and friends to become. Today this would be termed “despite negative consequences”. AA was co-founded 80 spiritual malady years ago when Bill Wilson passed on a message of hope to Dr Bob, or Dr Robert Smith to give his full name. Whether I stay in fear or shame is now my choice.

What Do We Mean by Recovered?

I have seen in myself how fear and shame seem to drive most of my maladaptive behaviour. Some of us have this knawing feeling of not being good enough, have a hole in the soul which we are/were kinda always unconsciously trying to protect, shield from the world. Some of us are “people pleasers”, some of us are dismissive towards others. I can be a dismissive person more than a people pleaser.

Both The Big Book and The Twelve and Twelve have remained largely unaltered since they were first written. The reason for this is that the solution to the problem is timeless. By sticking closely to the original message of recovery, we of AEA are not only relieved from addictive eating and food obsession, we have found a life that is happy, joyous and free. For me this is saying that out of my emotion dysregulation “stem all forms of spiritual disease”.

The Power of Obsession in Alcoholism and Addiction

To conclude that others were wrong was as far as most of us ever got. The usual outcome was that people continued to wrong us and we stayed sore. Sometimes it was remorse and then we were sore at ourselves. But the more we fought and tried to have our own way, the worse matters got.

  • You’re probably wondering what a spiritual malady is.
  • Spirit by these defects of character for long.
  • You are merely instructed to be open to the idea that you are not the end all be all, that there exists out in the universe something that is greater or more powerful than yourself.
  • By sticking closely to the original message of recovery, we of AEA are not only relieved from addictive eating and food obsession, we have found a life that is happy, joyous and free.
  • At times, I express my personal opinions about issues that have directly affected my journey.
  • We have commenced to see their terrible destructiveness.

But the beauty of the 12-steps is that they are spiritually based as opposed to religious. What that means is that all that is required is the belief in a power greater than yourself. There is no church you must attend or strict practices you must adhere to in organized worship of said higher power, it is a completely individual and personal experience. Thus, being in proximity to alcohol or those who drink does not affect me as it did before I accepted my disease and worked on my recovery. What many people do not know is that the disease of alcoholism is deeper than an allergy and mental obsession. Our alcoholic life is really the symptom of a spiritual malady. I have sought refuge from my negative emotions in alcohol, drugs and other addictive behaviours.

Recovery is a Journey

I am dismissive of them, intolerant, impatient and arrogant towards them. My step 4 showed me this is the unhealthy fruit of my greed, gluttony, my lust, my sloth. These are all parts of my emotionally entangled web that is spun when I react to some sense of rejection. I grew up in a family that did not express emotions like the ones I had mentioned. We reacted via anger and put downs hence I have grown up to be dismissive. Honesty is the heart of recovery and I am being honest.

How do you overcome spiritual distress?

  1. Recognize the signs of spiritual distress.
  2. Accept that things will be different.
  3. Find good listeners.
  4. It's okay to say no.
  5. Help yourself by helping others.
  6. Take care of yourself.
  7. Seek support.

It is strange paradox, the more you focus on helping others, the more you discover how much you matter. The great psychiatrist Carl Jung called this a ‘low level thirst for wholeness – for union with God’. In our addictions, we tried to quench our soul-thirst with fleeting pleasures. The pursuit of them dominated our lives, destroyed relationships, and caused greater desperation than we ever thought possible. We became selfish and self-seeking, ever thirsting for more, and this lust warped us on every level.

The relationship between the spiritual malady and alcoholism

When we recover, our mental obsession around alcohol is removed, contingent we continue to work on our spiritual recovery. In other words it is the consequence of my fear based condition, this affective disorder. These emotion processing deficits also appear to make us more impulsive, and to choose lesser short term gain over greater long term gain in decision making.

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